A.M. Achievements and Unfortunate Events:

So then I woke myself at 5 AM and settled down to write at 5:30. What am I writing at 5:30 AM you might ask of me? A history paper. I honestly had every intention of doing it yesterday, but I got to Semolino and ended up having a really good conversation instead. And subsequently got nothing done, but that is ok because it is 7 AM at present and said paper is complete! Oh yeah. Granted it was only 3 pages, but to some 3 pages is the end of the world.

I'd say 1 1/2 hours to get her done is great, including "research," when others were complaining about staying up until 1 and 2 the other day because they thought it was due Tues. I say HA to them, but in a very loving and non-demeaning manner.

In other, less humorous, news; a friend of mine was murdered Tuesday afternoon. I found out yesterday morning. It was a girl that I had met in French class four semesters ago. We used to study together at first and then she started coming to Kukkabah Koffeehouse and after that traveled in the same social circle as I. She was an honest and fun-loving girl. We hadn't talked much in the past few years, but she still trusted me enough to talk about the important things.

And those are the last conversations we had.

Unfortunately, a great wealth of truth and wisdom went unshared. And that mostly out of a fear of confrontation and conflict. As typical there is a temptation to blame myself for what happened, but in the end it was her decision and her killer's that led to this. I am more shamed by my lack of boldness to speak the truth; there is reason to live and you are worth more than a thousand pearls. And more angry at the underlying spiritual darkness that brought about this and every other atrocity.

Why do we fear love? And why do we continually attribute qualities of evil to a God who has no part with evil? I say " may our true enemy burn for a thousand eternities."

Luv,
Clay
(For the concerned; I am fine, in mourning, but fine. Any sympathy and prayer can be directed towards her family.)